So, Thursday is my birthday & I am turning 23… Over the hump to 25 which is scary!! But I am feeling great & fearless. Sometimes instead of getting things from others it is better to just treat yourself. I am getting my ómbre fixed from back in December which I could not be more ecstatic about, maybe will mix it up and put some red in my hair? I am feeling fearless as I said! THEN I am getting another tattoo which I also am pumped about. I haven’t gotten one in three years and it has been on my to do list. What better time then your 23rd birthday? I am sure pictures will be adding on here when all this happens!
I did have plans to go away this weekend but it’s not looking good considering I was scheduled to work on Valentine’s Day. I am heavily debating just calling out & risk getting fired to go to Savannah, GA or Mardi Gras in New Orleans. The thing is I have two other jobs & it would be super easy, I am sure, to find another serving job although I do love the people I work with. Decisions, decisions.. What I always say, time will tell!! ….Obviously I rather travel for the weekend cause I love going to new places & seeing old friends. Hmmm….. FEARLESS!?
As I grow up and get more mature, you start to realize that people do whatever they want regardless of others feelings. This could be seen as a positive & a negative. Positively by you need to focus on yourself every once in awhile and do things “selfishly” even if people don’t approve. I have definitely learned that the past year that it is O.K. to do things for yourself. In this society we aren’t always taught that because we get bashed for it. It’s is okay, just don’t make it a habit cause then you may start to hurt the people that care about you. But if they truly care they will be there for you no matter what. Negatively is when others (or you) act out and not think about the people they hurt. It kills me when people are in your life and even a big part of your life for a significant amount of time, make all these memories & just like that they vanish. Vanish like you were never even friends or anything. So they make the decision to stop talking to you without explanation. This has to me about three times now and I have learned to accept it. It truly means they aren’t meant to be in your life anymore if they just pack up and never speak to you. Accept it & move on, dwelling on the past will not get you to the future.
One of my good friends, which became closer after college which I couldn’t be more grateful about, said this quote to me the other day & it really hit me …
The only thing that is constant in life is change.
If that doesn’t click in you, I don’t know what will. As much as it is an oxymoron, it couldn’t be more true. Once you realize that, life can be easier to accept change & move to the next thing. The one thing I love about my Ma is she always told me whatever you’re going through, bad/good, just laugh, laugh about it because the struggle does not last forever.
I couldn’t be happier the people I have in my life right now and how I am feeling about my future. My 23 year in one word, fearless.